Fibro can throw you for a loop and I’m still working my way through one. It’s been a time of frustration and anger–mostly at myself. It’s an emotional rathole I’m prone to fall down where I condemn myself with things my worst critics wouldn’t know enough to consider.
This morning, the shower rod came down. We have those hook hangers that look like anchors. The plastic curtain goes on one side and the decorative part goes on the other.
For the life of me, I couldn’t get the damn thing back up. The more I tried, the worse it seemed to get. In fact, it seemed like I’d be trying to hang the damn thing for the rest of my life.
In the past, the frustration would’ve gotten the better of me. Anger would’ve ensued, followed by shouting and cursing, and a potential curtain rod order from Amazon.
I wasn’t perfect this morning, but I was well within the margin for error. There was grumbling but no shouting or cursing. No replacement rod, either.
I’m not proud of my previous overreactions. But I’m okay with this morning. It comes after a lot of effort to change over a lot of years. And a lot of failures along the way.
It comes after a lot of times I thought change is impossible. That I would always be that angry guy who lashes out. That I shouldn’t bother. That the effort is wasted.
If you’re trying to change, no effort is wasted. If you keep at it, you will get there–or at least part of the way there.
There’s no failure in not being there yet. The failure is in giving up on the way.
Your efforts are not wasted.